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Wake up, you've been dreamin'!
This night is dark and it's cold outside.
You smell a waft of mist and something's creeping
Out of your head and down your spine.

It strikes you, it hits you.
Get down on your knees!
It takes your breath away.

It’s like a lightning: bright and strong.
You don't know why it feels not wrong.

It burns in the eyes,
It hurts everywhere.
It shoots in every sore spot!
Feel pain rise to full size.
It's like salt in the wound.
Seems like there's acid where should be blood

Something's lost, what could it be?
Won't you find the missing key?

You've been traveling all your life -
Now's the time to arrive.
You've been here – there – everyfuckinwhere!

Caused by dawn you see the bridge to the light.
Where all roads end, there's just a path in the sand
At the point you leave the night.

With every step you do
Memories come back to you.
You see all your fuckin’ life again.
And if you look behind,
Your track will wind
Down and out of sight.

Watch your steps, if you'd fall, you won't get back – you won’t get back!
Reach the other side: passing dark, entering light – enter the light!

Caused by dawn…

Flying high, through the sky - every living thing must die.
Flying high, through the sky - tell the world good bye – die!

I need to know where to go.
My guidance is gone and I feel one – oh no.
I’m fallin’ right into my head,
I lay awake all night in bed.
Memories won’t lead to pleasure,
Deep inside I feel the inner pressure.

I’m drowning in the inside.
I’m leaving reality.
Down in the inside
I want you - I need you - to find me!

I am here and far away.
I’m full of thoughts, but I don’t know what to say.
My self-confidence is wasting away,
I can’t seize the night as well as the day.
Memories won’t lead to pleasure,
Deep inside I feel the inner pressure.

I’m drowning in the inside…

I’ve lost my consciousness – bring me back to light.
I’m so far away – Lord, help me out from the inside.

I’m drowning in the inside…

I feel the heat around me.
I feel my pain is real.
I feel your eyes turn icy.
I feel the will to kill.

I'm aware of all the stuff
I've been treated oh so rough.
Deep inside my hate is true
‘Cause I've been tortured by you.
You're coming over to me,
Feels like surreality.
You're the fuel to my rage
Stop this torture for Good's sake!

Please belief me, I'm sorry
But I won't stand it.
Won't you treat me so rough.

I don't know what we have done
You are gone and I am one.
You are leaving me behind,
Without you I'm going blind.

Tell me good bye - fuck off and die!

I'm aware of all the stuff,
I've been treated -oh- so rough.
Deep inside my hate is true,
’Cause I've been tortured by you.
You're the one that I desire,
But my hate burns hot as fire.
There is nothing left to stake,
Your excuses sound like fake!

Please belief me, I'm sorry…
No need to worry,
I'll rectify my situation.
Being with you feels so tough.

There is something in these cold eyes, just a glimpse and than it’s gone.
The reflections of my feelings make me lose the thoughts that I was one.
There’re some fingers on my elbow, I feel your breath, it feels cold.
Your life feels new, but these worries feel so old.

Sometimes I wish you were a child and I could catch you when you’d fall.
Sometimes I need to be your protector. I’d fight for you, you just need to call.
There’re some small pearls deep in your heart,
you keep them save, won’t let them out.
You kept them locked up for a long while.
And even I won’t touch them there’s no doubt.

Just a little self-reflection…

Go on, nothing’s wrong.
It’s just an ordinary day in an ordinary life,
just another hope that failed and just another lost fight.
It’s just another broken promise, and just another lonely night.
It’s just another new nightmare, just another bad side,
it’s just another proof of failure, just a road without light...

Turn it off, I can’t stand this shit!
This stupid fuck – simply said: I don’t like it.
We have to envy these perfect people with perfect lives.
And we consume just to find a compromise.

This is the reign of plainness - the loss of saneness - their meaning’s gainless - we’re turning brainless…
This is the cornerstone of social demise, we accept the lies, and adopt their fictional paradise.
This is a lack of inspiration, mental isolation, nonsense occupation, decline’s liberation.

Searching for satisfaction,
People long for resurrection.
So what – fuck perfection!
You neglect the things that used to be
Your source of individuality.
Turn the lethargy to action – and fuck perfection!

We give our freedom of speech to the media
and just want them to offer an opinion instead.
We shut down our brains and stop reflecting
- we’re the receivers, we follow our leaders!

This is the reign of plainness…

Searching for satisfaction…

You cover their lifestyles and take over their dreams,
you obey without questioning.
You would never ever dare to be different or a misfit.
And you’re afraid to get old, but you will, so say: fuck it!

Searching for satisfaction...

__chapter 1:
I’m staring at the ceiling,
Watching shadows moving slowly.
My heart is beating so fast,
And I feel so low!

I’m waiting for the sun to shine,
And I - I can’t sleep tonight!

In the corner over there,
kept awake by my despair,
I am staring at the window,
Waiting for the day to come.

You don’t really care, it feels too much – never mind!
I wish that I could dare to fight and leave it all behind.
You don’t appear, oh you don’t know, what you do to me.
I was waiting for you all day, didn’t dare to go away.
I just stayed till it got late and dark and everything turned grey.
You don’t appear; oh you don’t know what you do to me!

__chapter 2:
Life sometimes
Offers high times
-We just won’t realise.
We’re not ready to compromise.
Lose your burdens,
Stop these weird games.
Take a look around,
And see what can’t be found.
-Don’t look for paradise,
Accept the compromise.

I’m tired and so exhausted,
I’m angry, I feel depressed.
I’m ready to fight back but I don’t
know how to get up my ass.
I don’t know why I should stay,
while everything turns to grey!

Can’t you see me?
Won’t you free me?
I want you to stay right here,
make me lose the thoughts I fear.
- Don’t let me fade to black.
You know I can’t turn back.
Hearts beatin’,
Souls bleedin’.
Show me what it’s like to be,
lost in surreality.
- The world turns inside out,
we’re nowhere to be found.
- The hopelessness is gone,
when two souls turn to one.

__chapter 3:
I feel like I’ve wasted time and live and love.
I hoped for help from high above,
But it will never be the same again,
I never hoped to be the man I am.
And every second feels like eternity.
Every minute tortures me.
And every hour hurts like hell!
And the day won’t break the spell.
I’m tryin’ to lose, I feel abused, I’m so confused.

Longing for a new day, I’m waiting for the light.
I’m weary, I feel shattered - lost dignity and pride.

Blue skies, take me away,
Show me new reasons to stay.
Relieve the tension, free me – I feel numb. So numb…

I’m tryin’ but I won’t -
I fear I won’t find what I need.
I’m tryin’ but it’s not workin’
I can’t drink myself to sleep, it won’t bring a change to me!

Stop to breathe and look back,
The days before look grey and black.
You missed the road, you tried to turn,
But something died the day you tried.
You stopped to live? - You got passive!
So all your problems became massive
And you holed up deep in the ground
But you’re alive, not six feet under!

Go for a kiss by a muse,
Take up again the things you refused!
Stand up and reach for your stars,
I know you feel abused – you need a kiss by a muse!

Go for it …

Start breathing, now look ahead,
The weeks before you’ve been so sad.
You think the world stopped turning,
It’s rotting fast and started burning.
You feel the numbness all around.
Your soul, it screams without a sound.
I promise soon you’ll see the way
You will find back and you will stay!

You need new inspirations,
Just don’t lose your patience.
You need a new direction,
Just get fit for action!

Go for a kiss by a muse...

Well, you're restless, you're thinkin' about what should be.
About the plans the people face, 'bout what they see.
The sky's not dark and grass grows green,
life's a chance, break it free!

Illusion's so nice, it makes you feel like home.
Although you'll never reach back, you don't feel all alone.
Sunlight's dark, the days turned blue.
You don't care what to do.

Who are you?
Life’s not cruel.
As long as you don't pretend to be a fool.
Who are you?
Life’s not cruel.
As long as you're fighting, keep on askin': who are you?

Tell me the truth, show me all my lies.
Be my mirror till the end.
Make me hate all I'm not, so I'll be proud
about what I've got.

Live smells like rain after years of heat.
Breath in deeply, for this is what you need.
Don't care what the day will bring. Now it's the time
to dance and sing.

Who are you...

I’m lookin’ out of my window,
Watch the clouds drifting away.
I’m treasuring these pictures for a sad day.
The sun touches the horizon,
I take a deep breath.
Will there ever be a new sunrise, is there a life after death?

What comes after this? Is this the end?
Can we escape? How can I prevent?
Tell me: When’s my judgement day?

The night is dark and cold,
it sends shivers done my spine.
All life has fallen asleep, waitin’ for a new day.
Will we ever break this cycle?
The question’s tearing me apart.
And if things turn out bad,
Will there be a new start?

What comes after this? Is this the end…

Hope’s a lightning flashing through the night,
Makes the ground shine bright.
Hope’s the fire, burning in your heads,
Makes you forget your threats – you threats…
Hopes the clearness helping you to see
the wood for the trees.
Hope’s the longing for a better day.
Hope’s the wish to fly away.

Sometimes we need to feel the pain,
when all our hopes may seem in vane.
We need safeties but life’s game.
Do you feel the same?

Hope’s a candle in a storm,
While it’s burnin’ you feel warm.
Hope’s the thing that will help you to find sleep
No matter how hard they want to know the secrets you keep.
Hope’s the hunger for justice and love
And it’s given from high above.
Hope’s the longing for a better day,
Hope’s the hate we throw away.

And sometimes…

You don’t care, give a damn, I get sick – fuckin’ dick.
You don’t know why you’re tired, lost the things you’ve admired.
You don’t ask anymore - question what you adore!
You just won’t give a fuck what means truth, you get stuck!

Feel my hate, see me cry, watch me bleed, watch me die,
Feel my anger, face my scorn – I have fought, I’m war-torn.
Feel me break, feel me fall, feel my rise, now you’ll crawl.
Feel me laughing at you, feel the shame – fuckin’ true!

And sometimes...

No one speaks as we leave the earth behind.
We’re travelling fast, fells like it’s gonna blow our minds.
There’s just darkness, it’s the absence of light.
Seems like a dragon scarfes us down, it’s too late to hide.

We’re heading somewhere along the eclipse
on this freeway through the eternal night.
Time loses sense and money won’t solve problems,
we won’t come back but that’s all right. 
I close my eyes and I listen to the silence
interrupted by the sound of the engines.
I feel this endless void out there what we call space.
Somehow I like the idea of pitying this place – pitying space.

A place not worth to fight for,
We’re flying through the night, so
We leave the earth behind,
We’re gone; no one will find us…
We’re far away from the day,
Our lives sacrificed - we’re paralyzed.

Somewhere long after the endlessness of nothingness,
Drifting so far away from god’s grace,
You will find the message that was left behind
Once and for all – hidden in a void we should not find.

This lifeless place – I pity space,
Away from god’s grace – lost without a trace.

See the star light from many miles away,
Emitted years ago from a place where they no longer stay.
They may be gone forever in a supernova way back…
But we see their actinism from a spot that already tuned black.
Was it worth to fly away from home?
Was it wise to come here all alone?
No one asked for a visit, there’s so much indifference here.
We just show some life but when we’re gone, it will disappear.

A lifeless place – I pity space.

Fallen asleep,
You're dreaming of better days,
When your life was worth to live.
Imagining,
You'd find smoother ways,
Where you stumble no more.

But your wings have rot away,
You can't fly, you've got to stay,
All that's left for you's the sound.
When the hidden treasure's found,
You can't feel, your body's cold,
'Cause they've taken out your soul,
And you lost the game of life.

You needn't wake up,
'Cause the sun burnt out so long before
And darkness has come to your world.
Leave your eyes closed,
'Cause the birds fell from the sky.
They don't sing anymore.

But your wings have rot away...

It's your own fault,
'Cause you've played with the fire!
And no one was there for you.
You want to fly,
But you have to stay in hell,
The rest of your fucking little life!

But your wings have rot away...

Maybe you're walkin',
In the same streets as your fathers did before.
Maybe you're talkin',
In a way that only God could understand.
Maybe you're poor,
All you have is nothing.
But are you sure,
That the rich get everything they reach for?

We're on our way,
On a trip to find ourselves.
Maybe one day, we will reach our goals.
Chains of sorrows,
I hope that one day they will burst!
And all that will be left is our hope,
We're on our way, on our way...

Maybe you're tough,
You only drink your whiskey neat.
Maybe you're rough,
And people get shocked
At their first sight.
Maybe you're pretty,
And you know this is the worst curse
Of them all!
Maybe you can't cry, it's a pitty,
'Cause your heart is made of stone.

There's no turning back,
We've got to walk our way!
And when night's cold and black,
Tomorrow'll be a new day!

I feel it, feel it, the red button,
I don't hesitate, push it, push it,
Can't stop! It's too late!
I feel the vibrations as the earth
Starts to rumble.
Loosing control... But I don't, I don't tumble.

I can't hear the screams,
They're so far away. In hell I'll rest,
My guilt to pay!
I've sent the bombs, nuclear explotions.
I don't cry a tear, I don't show any emotions.

I see the faces, but I don't feel the pain inside.
This scene's, this scene's, this scene's not real!
A new dimension! My door to hell!
I don't fear death, because, because I'm under his spell!

I can't hear the screams...

People stare into the sky,
You hold your breath.
Listen to a child's cry,
All that's left is death.
Listen to a child's cry.
All that's left is death, death, DEATH!

I can't hear the screams...

People stare into the sky...

Darkness covers hills and stones,
Loneliness is with me.
I am walking through these streets,
Parallel reality!
What's wrong, what's right?
Do you care for miracles?
There's just another memory,
An idea what life could be...
...noone's with me!

Anywhere I go – I know there's noone!
But one thing, that is true, is with me
And with you:
A ray from heaven sent to me;
I feel new hope and I see:
I know, I'm not alone.
I feel, I'm not alone!

Feels like fire, burning in me,
Warm and peaceful.
I keep on going through a land,
Built of hate, that creeps and crawls.
What's wrong, what's right?
...

Anywhere I go...

You've been to hell and you got back,
But I don't mind.
You've climbed the highest montains
For thousand times.
You've fought the people, tried to risk your life
- So what?
Get what you need, back on your feet, you'll make it – but:
There's noone else, who cares, what you've done.
You fight for them, but all in all, you're still one!

Thank you for nothing, thank you for nothing at all.
Thank you for nothing, thank you for nothing at all...

Stop for a moment, try to breathe, try to apease.
Whatching the clouds, you'll relize, what life means.

Don't try to break yourself by trying to prevent,
That when you're done and gone, it means the end!
The world will turn around, the sun will shine.
Births of generationes. What will they say? Oh, don't you know?

Noone cares, what you've done!
Risk your ass, have your fun!
All your work, oh don't you see,
It is in vain! Leave it be!

The World, it seems is full of dreams,
Taht've been forgotten.
We realize, we compromise:
Good plans can look like rotten.
You've sawn love and what you get back
Is ingratitude.
You've sacrificed so much, I need to know,
Was this your attitude?
As long as hope prevails against the fears,
You'll find your peace.
And all the pain you cannot heal, ain't worth
A tear, don't you see?

You can't rearrange the stars,
Have a try, but you'll fail.
You can`t stop a running train,
All your afforts will be in vain!

Thank you for nothing,...
Noone cares, what you've done...

He was a simple man,
A man, who tried, to go his roads,
Who managed to break free.
He was a tough man,
A man with faith,
He trusted in what he could see.

And he fought all his life, he tried to breathe,
And when he died, I heard his sigh of relief.
A sigh of relief!
Yes he fought all his life, he tried to breathe...

She was a young girl, a pretty one,
She hoped to lead a better life.
She tried to breake the spell, she made things worse,
She went through hell,
And she never arrived!

And she fought all her life, she tried to breathe...

Why don't you see the things like I do?
Do trust in me now 'cause I've been there, too!
Oh, I've been there, too!

And they fought all their lives, they tried to breathe...

You want to use me, try to abuse me.
You want to take me – no good idea!
I'm gonna take you, I'm gonna break you!
I'm gonna do, whatever I want!

Schizophrenia! You're in my head. I feel like I Am turning mad.
I'm angry, oh, please disapear! This parasite Lives on my fear.

It's in my head! I'm turning mad!

I'm the new master, you should obey!
Don't run, I'm faster, listen to me:
I'm like a key, I'm opening doors.
But they're for me. My doors,
They're locked for you, of course!

Schizophrenia...

It's in my head...

I asked for help,
I was down, down on my knees.
I kept on fighting, I was beggin' you „please“!
I did not lose control, I did not stop.
Still I'm standing tall. After all, I did not fall.

„No need for miracles“, the voices said.
No need for miracles. Don't be afraid.
Take what you get and don't look back,
Time will bring healin'.
Time changed my mind, a great new feeling.

You could not sleep,
You've been tortured by your sorrows.
They took your breath and this was left:
Desparation and no tomorrow.
We did not lose control, we did not stop.
Still we are standing tall, after all, we did not fall.

No need for miracles - it's in my head.
No need for miracles, and don't be afraid!
Take what you get...

Nowadays I look back,
See the shit of centuries.
This misery, it makes me sad.
History repeats itself,
There`s no release!

It just tries to make you suffer,
Scream for help and there's noone
Who cares, you'll see!

Pain will reproduct itself,
Noone tries to stop!
Trust is just an idea,
That's why people get corrupt!

They just try to make you suffer,
...

Pain, sweet pain,
flashing in my brain,
hammering in my heart,
tearing me appart. I
suffer, suffer, suffer, suffer, ...

People question everything,
No matter what it is.
God and love, hope and faith,
They just can't see, what it means.

They just...

And after readin' what I've wrote,
Oh I wish I could explode;
Disappear and not come back,
Leave you alone whithout a track.

When you taste these words of fears
Oh they smell like wasted tears,
With an odor of grief, of hate of love,
Of disbeliefe.

And after readin' what I've wrote, ...

Do you need a knew connection,
Search for answers and satisfaction,
Search freedom and for justice,
Write it down and you will see:

After readin' what you've wrote...

Burn them down, these words of hate!
Don't forget, it's not too late,
All your dreams may still come true.
Do let new winds carry you!

Yes, I'll burn my hate and fear,
Suddenly it's crystal-clear:
Out of flames my life will grow,
A new beginning, this I know!